Things, well, they're a-changing!

If you've read the post before my last post, you know things are changing drastically in my household.

Kevin starts a new job on Monday!

We are in search for a new daycare! (and after our first visit to one yesterday, I KNOW it is the right decision).

I am drafting up a plan to present to Kevin about how we can afford a new daycare bill!

I am going through our bills vigorously to figure out ways to cut back!!

I am (well, not so much dieting) but eating less and trying to eat healthier. With this, for some reason, comes headaches! (ouch!) So I am cranky and need coffee more than ever! ha!

Change. Such a small word for all that it carries.

And with this New Year, I hope there is a lot of change. Don't get me wrong, change scares the crapola out of me. I'm not good at adapting to change. But I do know that it is what we need and there's no better time than NOW!

I've posted my resolutions for the New Year over to the right (do you see them?).

I hope to stick to them and make them all happen like you wouldn't believe. Here are some of my other goals for not only the new year, but LIFE too:

1. Be a better mama. With this comes better creativity, more patience, caring about his diet more (I was a stickler until a few months ago...I need to get back on track!), being a good teacher and role model, etc. etc. He is my whole heart and I feel immensely blessed that I have him in my life and there's nothing in this world I wouldn't do for him. I want him to grow up knowing this and feeling confident in it. To be a better mama is a lifetime of work and each day, I hope to get better at it.
2. Be a better wife. I'm definitely guilty of taking out my daily stresses on Kevin. It's a guilt I wish I didn't have. And although I feel that he could be doing better in some areas, it is not my job to fix it. It is up to him to be the person he wants to be. My job is, however, to love him unconditionally, with all of my heart. He's a great father and husband and I am so grateful for that. I need to be more patient and understanding. I need to listen more. I need to be less demanding. I need to put him first..period (I don't know if I ever really do this). I need to hug and kiss him more. I need to do a lot more. To be honest, being a wife is not a strong point of mine. I need a lot of work in this area! (can I get an AMEN Kev?? haha). But, just like motherhood, it is a lifetime of work and I hope to one day be good (hopefully GREAT) at it! Love you babe!
3. Be a better sister, daughter, niece, aunt, granddaughter (add in-law to all of those too) and friend. I just need work y'all, I just need work! I'm not good at reaching out. It's something I have never been good at. I have all this love for so many people in my life and they probably don't even know how deep it runs. I'll be honest, I think I'm scared. I think I'm scared that I'll love them more than they'll love me and it may just crush me. I'm not good at rejection. See, I'm getting teary eyed just thinking about it. I love deep and hard. It's really the only way I know how to love. But, you know what? I'd rather love that way than not at all. I need to take more chances and reach out more. I'd probably be surprised how deep their love runs for me too! =)
4. Be a better ME. There is so much that comes with this, but the main points are to just take more time for myself, have more hobbies, workout, be healthier, and just work on myself as a whole.

It's all a lifetime of work. I'm sure there will be times I fail more than I succeed. But, I think the key is to embrace the successful moments of life. Failure is what makes life interesting. It brings out raw emotions. Raw is how God sees us. Raw is how we should see each other. I hope to break down my walls and let raw love out and hopefully, let some in as well!

HAPPY NEW YEAR, Y'ALL! I LOVE YOU!!!!!!!!!!